Taking the lonely road…

Every time I travel the spirit of freedom is soaring. A feeling of total abandonment and free will. No questions asked, no answers to give. Alone on a lonely road but not lonely. These break free trips and nature trails have always brought me back to life. It is a feeling of being one among so many and the littleness of the ‘self’ that is so humbling. This realization of my little self is what keeps me going. The reality that life is just a flicker and it is up to me to make it the way I want to. As much as it is liberating, the feeling is empowering as well. I want to wander away into the vastness of nature and find my self, want to lose myself, because in this losing is my finding. Or is there a finding at all? Finding myself for me is not an end, it is a constant journey. In the inevitability of living it’s easy and comfortable to get stuck and sucked into the everyday mindless routine. This ordered living can be so overpowering that people can lose the ability to think beyond food, house, children, money and a living. Living versus existing. Working for a living but barely existing!