Wednesday, October 19, 2011

Moving towards dissolution…

Moving towards dissolution…

In seeking to bring about simplicity into my ‘being’ I seek to become one with the Universe. Simplicity in simple terms; starting from the outside; reduce my material possessions to nothing more than a bag of clothes and a couple of books and shoes maybe. To cut off the riff raff from the mundane life to let the simplicity of this simple outside living to seep into my inside, my core, my being…

If that is what I seek and has to boil down to, then why the hell or heaven am I even pursuing what I am at the moment, which is to do with everything with the material world… the answer simply is - to evolve…..

For me, to be and have become what I am today is a sum of my experiences; a culmination of the many ways I have chosen to be in the past – my career, my job, my emotions, my experiences, all of it and more; have I changed? Boy! You bet! For the better? I know not, I hope so, though… but certainly I have evolved, and I believe that is the true purpose of life….. to evolve and to evolve we all choose a way of doing and being…

Experience of life transcends the limitations of the physical… and there is nothing but the consciousness…. That is you…. Not the body, not the mind… just ‘you’ the consciousness…. The soul you may want to call it…

Today, in my doing and being, I seek to discard my Identity, the ‘me’ the ‘self’ – not easy, but I strive to…. Its difficult not to say ‘I’ or take credit when you know no one else will give it to you; Nah! To blow your own trumpet! Because no one’s gonna do it for you… but to let go of the identity, I am my body, I am my mind or I am my intellect is my quest, my journey….. I am just that Consciousness which seeks to evolve because in my evolution through the varied experiences I have through ‘living’ I find liberation, salvation, bliss or freedom!

This line of thought, makes many think of it as a disability. Its exactly the contrast – it is enablement, empowerment… it is moving away from the ‘I’ into the ‘us’ which is the universe… it is becoming one with the universe… the void… the nothingness…. that is all it is..... empty and nothing....

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Just went with it!





Notes to myself....

When one completely surrenders, with no fear of managing perceptions, what masks to keep, and what to let go, one can experience real bliss! Sometimes, it's as simple as just letting the universe take over. I had build up so much intent and providence moved; as if to put my inner world in sync with the outer; to just take over because the time had come; to give it to me because I deserve it. There's a kind of assurance in trusting the supreme power whatever term one uses to define this.

Going with the flow is and has been the law of nature, like dance; one movement beautifully unfolding into another. A synchrony, a rhythm; like making love; when you are completely undone and bare with no barriers and pretenses to keep and judgments to pass, there is a spontaneity which embodies complete surrender, that is real ecstasy, real liberation, real intimacy!

Real intimacy is rare -- that's what makes it precious. And it involves the revelation of one's self and the loving gaze upon another's true self (no makeup, no fancy car, no defensive charm, no seduction) -- that's what makes it so damn hard. Intimacy requires honesty and kindness in almost equal measure, trust and trustworthiness, forgiveness and the capacity to be forgiven… It's more than worth it.

To find myself in losing myself; I just went with it….

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Man! What a WOMAN!

The chasms created by men are so deep that it has perpetually thrown women into confusion; so much so that it comes as a hurdle in identifying their own selves. This seems to have happened to even successful women.

No passionate rhetoric, NO feminist agenda; just a thought, this morning over my tea with myself.

How this, has a bearing on how women think. While women struggled to gain a foothold and don the male roles, not because they wanted it, but because situations claimed so, men have wore the façade of respectability and cheated women’s trust. Is it, or, was it easy to make inroads into a man’s world? Heck no! Ask me. I am still someone’s daughter, or someone’s ex-wife, rarely my own…

You can blame it all on us… sure you should, because we let it be. But, now, its time for change. Not to defy the role a man plays in a woman’s world, but to establish her place in a man’s world. In becoming a significant partner in a fair world of equal men and women. In getting the respect and a place she deserves. In thought, in action and in spirit.

Mind you, and I repeat – I appreciate the nature of a man-woman relationship; of inter-dependence; a beautiful synergy – the way nature intended it to be. Each one has a role to play, no less no more…

As long as women will not liberate themselves from the self-imposed clutches, which are a manifestation of the uneventful surrender into the abyss of (perceived) male domination, they will never tread the path of glory – of complete emancipation… and that’s when you will hear –

Man! What a WOMAN!

Sunday, April 24, 2011

Purpose in purposelessness.....



It’s just that in this purpose of my wandering and getting lost I lose my purposelessness…

My friends call me a wanderlust, biker, gypsy… I’m all and none. In my nomadic ways and being on the road I find my ground, always – humility and gratitude; I feel so insignificant in comparison to the vastness of the universe, yet, significant enough to touch a chord somewhere. Which is what I do when I am not wandering; touching lives significantly; helping people find their anchor and freedom in their own little ways..
The more I wander, the more I come back, to my inner truth…

The day is not far when my worldly belongings will just become a bag of clothes and a few books and walking shoes… just a bag! Got nowhere to belong to, but myself… Swayyam, yes, will be a place which is my creation but not mine… where I am one among the many, but no ONE..

We all have our moments of emptiness and void, at least I do…. And these are the moments of going within I find, that, for me, freedom is the only way to be – A free spirit, like I was born… I experience this in moments of my rides with the wind on my face and the carefree abandonment…

Freedom does not mean lack of responsibility – on the contrary more freedom is more responsibility….and
I LOVE IT!